Some Quiet Time

It has been nearly eight months since I have written posts for this blog.  I sank into an oblivion of sort that took me into an overwhelming review of my life.  The doctors say that such an occurrance is normal for heart attack sufferers.  If that is so, I want to tell all people who have heart attacks to be wary and not sink forever into that dark place.  It has been over a year since my heart attack and the doctor just released me from quarterly checkups to annual ones.  I was one of the lucky ones who has not only survived, but thrived.

As usual, I climbed out of that deep hole and am now returning to where I was before all this happened.  It would be nice to believe that I will be stronger for it, but that is a question for the future.  While in the retrospect mode, it became apparent that the films rolling in my head had deleted all the good times and good things accomplished in my lifetime.

It is no wonder that the sink hole I fell into was so dark and deep when faced with all the wrong things I did in my lifetime and they are myriad.  Now, I can see the good and the bad and justice is in balance again.  As the snow falls today, it seems that the world is at peace and the quiet can be enjoyed cuddled near the fireplace with the warmth emanating keeping the room and me comfortable.   Quiet time and introspection aren’t bad things unless the review is skewed.  The truth must be seen and that’s the whole truth not just some edited version.

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4 Responses to Some Quiet Time

  1. Michele says:

    The black hole of depression is a dark and lonely place where you feel like a failure and nothing will ever be right again. At least that has been my experience. I’m so glad you are out of the hole and back among the optimistic living again! I can’t wait to read some blog posts from you!

  2. Doris says:

    Ditto what Michele said. Been there, done that, wanted to pull that black hole in behind me and just disappear. We all can give thanks that the black hole is not entirely emotional and that pharmaceuticals are available to us for helping to get the brain chemistry back in balance. Carol, it’s so good to see you back on your blog. If you feel well enough to write again, I know you’re OK. Love you!

  3. darlene says:

    We all love you and understand the hole the heart attack put you in. Most of us think we will never be struck down and when it happens it gives darkness it chance to enter our thoughts. However, light is always there slowly showing you the way out to the brighter side. Enjoy everyday knowing that you are blessed and loved.

  4. Leo says:

    Quiet introspection can be a good thing. I am glad you are through the fog.

    I cannot wait to hear from you again via your blog! Thank you for sharing the good times as well as the bad. I pray God’s peace (that surpasses all understanding) comes upon you as you continue to clear the fog.

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